Smoking u bit by bit....
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The week seemed to drag & weekends were finally here at last.
I was happy, i thought i was. I shld be happy.
........yet not....WHY?
something had been bothering me.....weighing on my mind...U?
After a long day's work.....i was back home....home?
Lying on the sofa in this bleak living room,
I felt LOST....
Staring blankly into the air, my mind wandered.....
i wondered how the Sky was at ur side?
My Sky outside was revealed when i drew open the curtains.
It was drizzling.....
the raindrops were falling fr the Sky like little white snowflakes.
Brian McKnight's singing sounded "blue" in the background....
juz like me now.....full of blues......
"Whitish Blue" painted the Sky,
staring at me gloomily....seemingly u/standing how i felt
Drawing a stick out from the cigarette pack was an initiated call from my sub-conscious.....
Had been trying to quit smoking,
so i left this pack aside for almost a mth untouched.....
so WHY the sudden urge now to have this puff?
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becos when u blow out clouds of smoke at least u can SEE why things are so hazy... if not ur mind is hazy and u dunno why.
gives us an excuse to see the haze in our souls....
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Used to hate cigarettes a lot in the past.
I thought the smell stunk!
And i cldnt u/stand why anyone wld smoke...???
For WAT?
You were the first to offer me a cigarette butt....Haha....
I was pretty well-known as an Anti-smoker then
"Wat the hell is good abt Smoking man?!" was my favourite line.
Smokers ard me had gotten used to my bad impression with smoking, except U.
U were new to the company, din know abt tt & I was glad....
There was something abt U which i cldnt explain.....
Like a magnet living within ur body & soul......
attracting me to U & closer to my heart
From then on, i was convinced abt Magnetism
Simply a mesmerizer
captivating my heart
Were i ever tt impt to U. Maybe not.
Tt was why U left me w/o any reason. A silent break-up.
Leaving me to fend myself.....fighting against this loneliness
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hmmm.......chim.......will try to visualizeOriginally posted by jOhO:becos when u blow out clouds of smoke at least u can SEE why things are so hazy... if not ur mind is hazy and u dunno why.
gives us an excuse to see the haze in our souls.... 
why do u smoke?
if u smoke lah....... 
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Rolling this cigarette butt between my thumb & forefinger,
i was hesitant to light....it reminded me of U.
U used to buy me cigarettes,
even this last pack........
but right now leaving with the last cigarette in it.
The first & the last memory i'd be having of U.....
Taking the lighter on my right hand,
i lit the cigarette butt held on my left.
Observing how the flame burnt the skin of the butt
& slowly scorching the tobacco until the flame extinguished.
And i inhaled a deep breath from the cigarette,
At the same time, a deep breath of U.....
Knowing very well tt the puff contained as much as
6oo over toxics flowing thru my blood streams
but i was also equally addicted to ur intoxication & craving for U
My addiction for U began from my first puff
Feeling "high" for the first time in my entire life.....
floating on cloud nine & seeing [color=indigo]stars spinning ard my head
........................truly amazing..........................
Taking a second puff, following by a third one, fourth &.....
i cldnt stop anymore...i had fallen in love with smoking....
bit by bit smoking U....indulging in the feel of inhaling U
My head felt light as if floating in the air,
seeing stars dancing right before my eyes....
Feeling strange with this little bit of discomfort from the first puff
but the craving to smoke......U......got stronger & stronger
.......................Smoking U bit by bit..........................
i'm slowly getting used to it.....getting hooked on the feel
Hooked on the Addiction of smoking U bit by bit.......
Taking my last puff which i had been hesitating for a long time,
I finished the last memory i had of U.......[/color]
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Inspired by a fren(Original Quote) who wrote,
"i haven't smoke for long time though. now i smoke **** on the internet...hehehehhh... smoking for the first time feel like having a very light head, like low blood pressure or giddiness...but tat is only the first time...after tat is normal to smoke compare to not smoke becos of the addiction."
with help from Mr Low Jiun Sian
providing me the info for his "Kick" on Smoking....
WaHahahhahahaa
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Hey HEy!!!
For one thing! You Got MY NAME WRONG!!! 
It's LOW... Not LOH!!! But think the text a bit strange leh... hard to understand 
Anyway, next time can put my name as anonymous>??? -
Ehhhh....u r a member liao ah?!?!?! u online meh?Originally posted by Mojav3:Hey HEy!!! For one thing! You Got MY NAME WRONG!!! It's LOW... Not LOH!!! But think the text a bit strange leh... hard to understand
Anyway, next time can put my name as anonymous>???
hahahahahaha
wat text strange strange....ok lor
CANNOT!!!!! put 'anonymous'.....i put 'Low Juin Sian'....k?.....correct now rite? -
yeah i smoke..Originally posted by reallieRAW:hmmm.......chim.......will try to visualize
why do u smoke? if u smoke lah.......
why?
prob becos i'm stupid, and it's a habit. i mean a HABIT HABIT. u know like some pple wake up and do a shit every morning without thinking? it's that subconscious. -
Tt's alrite.....Juz trying to gain some insights on smoking or stories to share abt smokingOriginally posted by jOhO:yeah i smoke..
why?
I cant imagine tt much though..... but no prob now since it's done